I am still doing well. I think that is a record for keeping mainly on plan. My weight has stalled this week but I think that may be because there have been small cheats here and there. I am trying to plan a free meal in advance and see if I can be good until then. Michael�s birthday is Monday and we have discussed having dessert and possibly a free meal.

Sometimes that waiting for the freebie thing backfires. For instance, several months ago I was also doing well. My supervisor said that on X day I will bring a chocolate cake for the team next Thursday. I thought about that piece of cake ALL THE TIME. Now, the cake was only mentioned that one time, but everyone knew Stacey was going to bring the cake. I cannot explain how much that cake meant to me. That Thursday, Stacey, who comes in at 9 am every day, still wasn�t in at 10, 11, noon. I left at noon to get a drink from Sonic and I had some kind of a breakdown. I was almost crying because I thought I wasn�t going to get this piece of cake. Okay, not almost, I was crying.

I think the morale of that story, if there is one, is that food has become way too important to me. I think about food all the time. I spend too much time and energy thinking about my next meal and how many carbs it has, how much water have I had and on and on� it never ends. We have been watching Celebrity Fitclub 2 on tv, mainly because we just love Phil (Bam�s father) Margera. I think watching this and seeing the success that these people have had, has made us start to reconsider the type of diet we are on. Michael has been doing some research on Nutrisystem, that is where you order all the good, it is like $200 per month per person and you need to supplement it with other things, which isn�t too bad, but I think we eat out too often to make that work.

I am (still, I know!) thinking about weight watchers, the thing that stinks is a) it is expensive. B) the meeting times around us seem to stink. Michael has a group that meets at his office and he could do that, but I wouldn�t be able to attend that meeting, its for employees only. So I would need to go to a meeting on my own. Michael could join independent of his work but the only meeting time that we could both do together would be at 8 am. This sucks. I could probably go on Wednesdays. I guess we could both follow the same diet and go to separate meetings, or once we get all the goodies and we know what we are doing we could do it online. Just too much to think about.

I wish I had a trainer or life coach to just tell me what to do. Anyone want that job?

The decision has been made, I haven�t even told Michael yet, but we are going to New Mexico for vacation. Final Answer!