I have a confession to make. I have always been a curious little monkey. I don't like reality tv (not too much) but I do have a very morbid curiosity about some things. I admit, I used to check the rotten.com site when it was free. I like to watch the medical shows like Life in the real ER, Paramedics, any type of show like that. I have watched shows showing autopsy's and surgeries without flinching.

I think I may of taken things too far. I was speaking with a friend at work about the Berg situation, we both seem to have the sick need to see the video. So I had located the site (thanks hon) and have watched it twice now.

I can't say that it made me feel good. It was very grusome. It was definately not something you would see in the movies.

I told the friend of work that I had seen it and we discussed it throughout the day. Last night when she got home I emailed her the link, she could not see it due to a problem with her computer so we did some telephone tech support (again, thanks hon) which took about an hour and a half. She has a dial up so once she did all the critical updates it was well after 1 am. She gave up for the night and I went to bed.

I got an email from her this morning. She was late to work due to watching it. We have been going back and forth by email discusing what we saw and our feelings on it.

I am glad we both got to see it and discuss it. Michael hasn't watched it, he asked last night during the tech support if he should watch it and I told him no. I told him I thought he was too sensitive and it would deeply disturb him.

That was it. That is my confession. Do you think I am a sicko? Am I demented? Or am I just morbidly curious?